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Charlie Chaplan ~ “As I Began to Love Myself”

So much wisdom through experience

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“As I Began to Love Myself”

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
As I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time
was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this
person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time, and everything…

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Recent Relationship Patterns as Realities Split

Quite a good article that’s worth the time to read.

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I’ve alluded many times to a splitting of realities/timelines and what I call the “Cosmic ‘Are You Sure?!'” but wanted to share today about how I see these two factors affecting relationships. Many clients and loved ones have experienced simultaneous breakthroughs in stuck areas of their lives, only to find breakdowns of long-term relationships. This pattern often occurs anyway, because as we shift our own restricted energies into new, expansive directions, those who felt comfortable with the lesser version of us can feel threatened by the change. That dynamic just seems majorly magnified right now, so I wanted to assure people that if you’re experiencing it, you’re not alone. Entire swaths of our culture are choosing either perpetual victimization, fear and ignorance or liberation, love and joy.

Fence sitting continues to become uncomfortable and borderline impossible, which can result in fence sitters lashing out at people who represent the side…

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Walking My Talk

Over the last few weeks, I had been going back and forth in my head about whether or not this was the right time to spend money on something that I really wanted to do. I was totally stuck in my head about this.

So when I was walking Java yesterday morning, I was having this conversation in my head again going back and forth, not going anywhere. Finally, I just said to myself stop! I then asked myself, Dawn where is all this coming from, where is this back and forth centered in? I immediately answered this is coming from my mind which is attempting to figure out what was best for me. Ok, yes I’m all for being wise in my spending but where was this desire coming from that I wanted to make this expenditure. The answer was it was coming from my heart. Then I asked myself, what did the universe tell you about this move? I remembered how I was told I would be supported, I would be protected, I would be buoyed and not sink. My hand would be held. Ok, if that is the case I asked myself why wouldn’t I trust in what my heart desired and what the universe had promised me? I started to laugh because I realized how silly I had been being.

The thought persisted a little longer in saying well don’t you want to be responsible though and frugal to support this. At that point the thought that kicked in was, Dawn are you going to walk your talk or not? At that point I knew that I could trust that spending the money would not take anything away from me. It was from the heart, it would in the long run bless my community and myself, and it was about trusting what I had been told.

So when I came home, I went online to pay for the deposit for what I had wanted to register for. It was funny because when I first tried to pay online, the Paypal link hung up when i hit pay. It stayed like that for a number of minutes. I finally just hit the back button and it brought me back to the pay button again. I decided to check my bank account at that point to make sure that the payment hadn’t gone through, before I tried again. In the past I would have thought, “OH, that must be a sign that I wasn’t supposed to do this after all.” This time around, I knew that it was the universe asking me if I was REALLY sure about trusting. So I went back with more intention that this is what I was choosing to do with a whole and open heart. The payment this time went through with no problems. I felt totally at peace with my decision and intention.

I went to get up and walk away from the computer. As I was doing so, I caught my left little toe on one of the boxes that I had packed in my room. I was walking with some force and when I caught my toe on the box, which was quite heavy it actually moved the box. I screamed and cried in pain. I finally looked down at my toe and realized it was turned 90 degrees out from my foot. OOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW. I felt I had either dislocated it or broke it.

Once I calmed down, I pushed my toe up against the rest of my foot. It was already double the size it normally is and was getting bigger. At least at this point it was closer to the rest of my foot. I soaked it in cold water, then in warm water, I did Reiki on it coming from the intention of my highest good.

I had intended to continue packing yesterday along with running some errands that needed to be done. I was having difficulty walking, so I made a decision to not pack yesterday, but to go ahead and do the errands and then come home. When I returned home I soaked my foot again in cold water. At this point the whole foot was completely swollen and really difficult to walk on. I laid in bed with my foot up on a pillow. I kept thinking to myself, this wasn’t just some isolated accident there was a message here, what was it.

I looked up the metaphysical meaning of breaking or dislocating your little toe on your left foot. This is what I found “The Left Earth Toe is all about trust and trusting – trusting the Universe, trusting other people and trusting yourself.”

Here’s the link to what popped up when I had done the search online


Ok, that seemed to ring true, it resonated especially with what I had gone through with the back in forth in my mind earlier on my walk. I was asking myself, well why would this happen when I confronted those fears and trusted, deciding to “walk my talk”. Do you get where this is leading?

I went on my walk with Java this morning because by the time I woke up my foot was feeling significantly better, allot of the swelling had diminished, even though there was still pain in my toe. So Java and I headed out. As I was walking it hit me why the whole broken toe thing happened. I had consciously chosen to “Walk My Talk” by trusting. At that moment a recent post by Tania Marie I had seen came to mind. Here’s the link to Tania’s website post and the quote that rang in my head.


“also like Robert Wilkinson’s remarks, particularly in light of my own “physical bone fractures” I’ve experienced that symbolically felt potent to the breaking apart of old to new he explains:

“As Eternals, we’ve seen many things fall apart across many lifetimes. It’s a very human experience. And every loss creates the space for something new to come at exactly the right time…

“Just keep in mind that if it actually IS a time of many things fracturing, don’t be impatient for the new to present itself before the fracturing is done. We need a clean slate if we’re going to write a new symphony (and it’s hard to write one when the ground is shaking!)”

I was so thankful for that flash of insight and thankful for the article by Tania Marie. I realized that the breaking of my left little toe was breaking up of an old belief and pattern. And that I was co-creating a new pattern that would be much more beneficial to my new life I was also co-creating. I was anchoring in this belief of “walking my talk” figuratively and literally. As this inspiration spread through me, the rest of the pain in my toe completely vanished. The elimination of the pain, signified that I had really received the message that had been gifted to me.

I am so appreciative and grateful for this experience. I feel completely loved and cared for AGAIN. Thank you to Tania, your posts definitely make a difference to my life. Thank you to me for listening. I am celebrating as I continue to pack today.

  THE BLT (Bear, Lion and Tiger) . . . thanks to R.

This is such a lovely story on so many levels. Enjoy the pictures as well. Just gives my heart so much happiness

The Blessings Of Java’s Awareness and Sensitivity – An Opportunity to Aid a Feathered Friend with Reiki

Walking Java this morning as goes our routine, it’s so beautifully clear, blue skies and mild temps. It’s a morning stroll that starts off our day, we are receiving exercise, fresh air, nature and we enjoy the time together, and of course the practical aspects for Java of being able to do “his business”.

We just mosey along, Java stopping at his favorite pit stops to sniff and make sure that everything is in its proper place. I swear, if ANY thing is moved (even the slightest) he knows, or if some thing is added to his environment and/or taken away, again he notices. He is so aware. I just appreciate him so much.

Another trait that Java has that I really appreciate is another aspect of his awareness. He always knows when people, bikes, etc are within his radar. It’s a fairly large area that his radar covers. Whatever he notices can be half a block away behind us and I don’t hear a thing. He on the other hand starts to look back as we are walking. That is always a sure sign that Java is signaling something in the vicinity that isn’t normally there. WARNING Will Robinson, WARNING. I always think about that we he starts that behavior, it was the robot from the old TV show when I was a kid, called Lost In Space that used to say that to the young boy that was his friend. So I am so appreciative of his protective instincts. I know that when Java is with me, I will not be surprised by some unexpected presence.

We were just about home when I noticed something on the sidewalk. The young girl that was walking in front of us by about half a block, stopped and looked at what was on the sidewalk for awhile and then went on walking. I didn’t have my glasses on and Java wasn’t signaling his alert behavior. But I could sense it was a bird and as we got closer I could see that it was a bird. Java still was not noticing it.

I felt that something was wrong with the bird but I had concerns about coming too close to the little feathered guy with Java even on his leash. Just as we were a couple of feet away, I saw the bird attempt to fly away. It didn’t really work for him. but he did get about 5 more feet away from the sidewalk. I noticed his one wing looked really ruffled. Still no reaction from Java. It was like he didn’t see the bird, or did but knew he needed help.

I watched the bird and he managed to get up to the white picket fence not far from us…I was relieved because I thought at least he will feel safe there. I decided to send him Reiki, I called in the Reiki intending it for the little bird’s highest good. I also explained to the bird in my thought that I wanted to help him, I sent him pictures in my head of how I would do that and that I hoped he would let me. I told him that I was sending him Reiki and it was up to him whether or not he wanted to accept it. I respected him and his body.

I began the Reiki and he just stayed on the fence. Java didn’t really budge, he was very peaceful and quiet. Java loves Reiki and any time I begin a Reiki session whether for him or someone else, in person or long distance he immediately just relaxes and goes to sleep, absorbing whatever he can. As I continued Reiki for our bird companion and friend, I started to feel really nauseated and my stomach was turning, I felt off balance. I realized i was picking up on how the bird was feeling. So I just kept the Reiki up till the nausea went away for me. That tells me it went away for him as well.

Java then started becoming impatient and decided it was time for us to go. So that was a signal to me that I had done what I could for the little bird. The bird was still on the fence but he shook himself and his feather/wing was laying normal now. Before it looked really ruffled up prior. I had the sense that when I car had driven by in the neighborhood, it had clipped the bird, causing stress and possibly hurting his wing. I had the sense that he was fine now. Before we left I told the bird thank you for letting me help him, and that to take time on the fence till he felt well enough to leave.

Java and I went on our way home. I appreciate Java and his sensitivity to me and other living things. I love you bud! I also feel extremely blessed to have been able to help our feather friend in his need. Much love to all spirits, and here’s to helping whenever we can when presented with an opportunity to do so.

Have a great rest of your day!

Here’s Java Man

My best buddy Java

My best buddy Java

Communication Breakdown

Tania Marie shared this post on her blog and Facebook. I couldn’t agree more. It was something I had been contemplating as well, and then Tania put this out, how synchronistic! She puts it beautifully. I have been challenged with this as well as others, I’ve been on both sides to be honest. Note to self, I will do better.

Tania Marie

I find it interesting to hear about and observe the way people interact and communicate, especially online. Before, when people related more in person or on the phone, there was an immediate interaction that engaged you to be more present and potentially to be more accountable in the moment.

But now, there seems to be a lot of disconnect between expectations people have when they want/need something and lack of the same care/courtesy when others communicate with them.

We can push things and people off, ignore them all together, or hide behind words more easily.

While technology has created great advancements in some regards and enabled connections that never would be, it seems to me to also have increased lack of personal depth in terms of how we relate with one another, less accountability and personal responsibility, things get lost in translation, and it provides everyone the easy and convenient…

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Happy Summer Solstice

Summer Solstice Blessings from Lake Tahoe, Tania Marie and the Sun Angel.

Tania Marie

summer solstice lake tahoeYay! Summer is here and I couldn’t be happier to be celebrating it and tuning in from Lake Tahoe. The photo you see here is an amazing capture I took at the Lake yesterday of the Sun appearing to me like an angel or cosmic butterfly.

This year is just speeding along and my being away has brought much reflection to my own personal need to slow things down amidst the acceleration, and that a lot more change is definitely in order. I’m feeling a new spark of inspiration flooding my body and soul.

And I am envisioning revitalization for everyone’s current experiences as we experience today’s Solstice. Remember that this is a time of blossoming, celebrating, embodying self-awareness and your Higher Self, releasing the old patterns of suppression, and recharging the mind, body, and spirit to bring what you desire into your life.

It’s a time of the Divine dance…

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Happy Summer Solstice!

Yummie Solstice post by Laura Bruno

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Litha, Midsummer, Solstice … whatever you call it and however you honor it, I wish you a blessed one! This video shares some meditative music, artwork and Nature photographs to get you in the mood even if you’re spending the day indoors:

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Summer Solstice – The Fruits of the Seeds Planted, Butterfly Messages

Yellowtail Butterfly

Yesterday was my last day at work in Utah. It’s been quite a process. And this past week has been about trust, an awareness of conscious choices, surprising revelations and magical happenings.

As I have mentioned before I moved to Utah at the end of April 2011. I had been living in Sonora, CA for the year leading up to the move. I had signed up for my first class with The Four Winds Healing Light Body School which was for the South Direction. It began at the end of April. I had intended on going to class and returning to California. Instead, my work place in Sonora had told me a month prior that they were going to be laying me off due to a slow down in business. I gave it some thought and decided to put my belongings in storage, pack up my car with my dog Java and cat Jadey, my clothes, a juicer and my blender, and head to Utah. I had no idea what would happen, initially I was going to be staying with one of the women that worked with The Four Winds, while I was going to class. Her offer allowed me to go to class, which was my most driving intention and desire at that time. After that I didn’t know what would transpire once class was done, other than there would be the West direction class taking place in July in Park City too, that I wanted to go to. It was all about trust and faith, and keeping that focus on what I desired, and taking the footsteps to align with that intent.

As it turned out, I stayed for 3 years and a few months. I spent allot of time alone, other than with Java and Jadey. I lived in a very rural and beautiful valley that was primarily farmland. People were nice, but I just couldn’t seem to connect. I was integrating allot of energetic shifts from all that I experienced in the South and West direction classes that first year, and then the following year I attended the North and East direction classes that were held in Joshua Tree in CA. Those classes and experiences also created many energetic shifts too. I experienced winters that were so beautiful, but extremely long lasting…longer than I had experienced ever before in my life. I had a hard time with that. I couldn’t seem to get warm.

Then last year I experienced a health crisis that took most of the year to work through. I spent allot of time in bed, when I wasn’t at work and slept allot. With the assistance of a number of alternative therapies and practitioners, and diligence on my part with my background in Reiki and Shamanic studies, I became stronger and began to come back. Not in the same way but much more aware of what I needed to do to take care of myself in the best possible way.

This past February I visited a dear friend who lives in the Sedona area of Arizona. I had such a lovely time during that visit, I had never spent time there before. I returned after that long weekend and when I came home, I knew I would be going back. It was calling to me, to my Soul and I was listening.

I hadn’t made any formal plans as of yet, but the Universe kicked into gear less than a month later. I had this incredible dream of love, support and protection that made it very clear that now was the time to begin the process of transitioning to move.

That week of the dream, there was a situation at my job that came up that needed me to make a commitment to stay there. Needless to say, I could not make that commitment because my heart said something else. So I explained to my bosses what my heart was calling me to do. That was on my 60th birthday. I had no idea what they were going to do when I did that. But I trusted that I would be OKAY. Sure enough, they were so grateful that I was honest with them because it saved them from the expenditure of sending me to training, and then possibly me leaving anyway.

We had conversations and we agreed my last day would be June 20th, which was yesterday. I was thankful for that time to make all the preparations that I needed to, and they were very appreciative of the long notice because it gave them plenty of time to find my replacement. I would also be able to train my replacement and be there for questions that came up in the midst of the transition. It all worked beautifully.

When I left yesterday, I felt that I had been true to my heart and soul. I had held true to my integrity by trusting that all would be well, and that as long as I did what I thought was right, no matter what anyone else did, I would be fine. That complete trust and confidence was coming from a place of knowing which made all the difference in the world. I just KNEW. Some of my co-workers surprised me yesterday in expressing how much they would miss me. I had made more of an impression on those around me than I had realized. It was a lovely surprise and I realized that just because people do not express themselves in ways familiar to me, that maybe they are more reserved than I, doesn’t mean that someone hasn’t affected them.

By the time I came home last night, I had such energetic waves of appreciation, emotion and release…I needed to just lay down and bask in it all…be in a place of solitude and gratitude.

I have learned a tremendous amount in my short time in Utah, about myself and about others. I will carry this imprint of time within me in positive and strengthening ways.

With today being summer solstice, I wanted to spend time outside. So this morning Java and I took a number of walks. We had driven to one of the locations he likes. It’s a high school that has a lovely little creek than runs on the side of of the property along with beautiful willow like trees growing on the banks. I love watching them as the breeze blows through them, and the rays of sun twinkle in and out of the branches.

As we were getting out of the car, I noticed a big, beautiful yellow and black butterfly on the road. It was simply sitting on the road waiting to fly, with it’s wings up. I just kept watching it and shortly, it flew up in the air and flew around me in a spiral from the bottom of my feet to the top of my head and up into the air. At this moment I became an observer, watching in appreciation and awe as it flew around me back and forth. Java finally became interested in it and started to chase it. It flew far enough away that Java stopped, and then it continued to fly past me again.

I finally went with Java towards the creek, he was becoming impatient. As soon as we got to the creek, I saw another butterfly marked just like the previous one and it was dancing in amongst the willowy branches of the trees. I just stopped and watched as it brought so much joy and love to my heart and soul. Thank you for the messages you bring to me. I am blessed and loved, supported in that love, buoyed by that love and encircled by that love.

I will be packing up this upcoming week, and will be moving next weekend. I am starting a new journey, in a new location that I find magical and supportive in it’s energies and peoples. I look forward to what unfolds there, but I also am enjoying each and every moment of this time, being present, and holding space for grace and appreciation.

When I came home from our butterfly encounter, I looked up the butterflies to see what type of butterfly I had seen. It’s the picture at the top of this page. It’s a Yellowtail Butterfly. They are huge and gorgeous. After the encounter, I suddenly remembered I had found one, who was fully intact on the grass but no longer alive when I first moved here. I brought it in and kept it in my room. It had brought me a message then about transformation, and it has returned to bring me more messages about the next transformation. Thank you Butterfly, I am in your debt and I honor you.

Multi-Dimensional Magical Happenings

My walks with Java in the morning and evening seem to spark something for me, as I look at the sky, the clouds, the horizon, the mountains, just appreciating and taking it all in, knowing that I will be in a totally different landscape shortly in Arizona and just soaking it all up before I leave. The last few weeks I have had instances of vivid recollections while I’m walking with Java. One was about a week ago. The sun was setting, it was beautiful and warm, the light was just so and I had an instant flashback of being in high school during the summer between my Junior and Senior year. I was at my best friend’s house, we were walking out of the house onto the driveway to get into her vehicle which was a very cool GMC pickup I believe…the one with the floor starter…it was a beige/tan color. The way the sun was and the feeling of that moment instantly transported me back to that particular moment in time. It was a great memory. We had been riding down the expressway with the windows down, talking and laughing, being young teenage girls with our whole lives ahead of us. What joy that brought back to me. Last night when I was walking Java, it happened again. This time I was looking at the clouds and the way the sunlight was shooting it’s rays through them, as it was starting to set behind the mountains. All of a sudden I was transported back to another moment. It was the memory of riding in the car, leaving town with my boyfriend to drive to dinner in Felton, in the redwoods from Campbell. The light, clouds and mountains all had the same feel. As it turned out, my boyfriend proposed to me at dinner that night, and gave me a heart shaped engagement ring. It was a fantastic night, again, so much to look forward to. I’m sitting with the memories of these moments this morning…vivid as if they were happening right then. I love life right now and how it surprises us.

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